It’s stuff like this, that makes me feel like this. Swinging wildly bewteen the polls and stories like the one Greg Pallast tells—of missing absentee ballots, thousdands of voters (especially minority voters) being purged from voter rolls, and voter registrations being shredded—it’s impossible not to feel a little ill. No one has to be reminded how an election this close can be stolen.
I don’t know why this election feels so personal to me, but it does. I don’t think I’ve had this much personally invested in an election since Clinton’s first run. (The first time I really, actively campaigned for a candidate.) I guess it’s because I genuinely believe that Bush’s policies are just going to end up making the world a more dangerous place than it is even now. (Of course, I also believe his policies help make it more dangerous now.) I know that the kind of America he and his supporters envision isn’t one that has a place in it for families like mine. In fact, for some of his more frightening supporters, it’s a vision of the America in which families like mine don’t exist. So, how can I not be personally invested in this election? How can I not hope for Bush’s defeat after tomorrow’s voting?
The vote. I have to be honest. The last four years haven’t done alot to shore up my faith in my fellow American voters. If anything, it’s been significantly eroded since the last presidential election. At times I’m mystified that Bush has the amount of support he does. These day’s I’m simulaneously worried when I hear the stuff that Palast is reporting, and at the same time encouraged when I look at how many people out there are supporting Kerry. (So, at least when it comes to me and my family, I know that at least half the country doesn’t hate us.)
Still, I’m hopeful that sometime after tomorrow, the long night will be over, and we can kiss George W. Bush and the neocons good-bye. Like I said, I’m encouraged by the amount of support I’m seeing for Kerry. It also helps knowing that some of my talented and energetic co-workers like Emily, Michael, and Joshua are out there in the swing states, getting out the vote for Kerry and making sure we have a fighting chance against whatever the Republicans will inevitably try to pull.
So, tomorow, I’ll get up in the morning, cast my vote, and wait. That’s the hard part right now. Waiting and hoping.